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Garden of Eden-Song about Forgiveness

Song I wrote about how it feels to do something seemingly innocent only afterward to result in spiritual isolation and abandonment. Raising the question of whether God will really welcome us home when what we’ve done seems way beyond the reach of his grace.

I think we all have at least one thing from our past that leaves us feeling like we’re still in hiding, even though God says it’s forgiven.

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Saying “I Do” to Jesus | My 7 year wedding anniversary

Today is my 7 year wedding anniversary.  I’m very thankful for marriage, the gift that God has given us to experience companionship and intimacy.  I strongly believe that anything God labels as “good,” higher principalities and powers of evil are seeking to destroy! Our hearts and minds are all twisted with the wrong ideas about marriage, intimacy and true love.  The first relationship was between God and man, but it was the first time that God declared something not good. “IT IS NOT GOOD for man to be alone.”  Flesh on Flesh Relationship was a solution to earthly loneliness.  But the physical relationship between man and woman was never meant to exist without a spiritual relationship with God.  We will always long for that “third dimension” to our lives.  God himself, reveals the whole of who he is as the TRIUNE God, the three-in-one.  Without God, you will always find yourself looking to fill that empty void with something or someone else. Your spouse, alone, will NEVER be able to fulfill the third dimension of ANY earthly experience.  Around three years ago, God brought me to the scripture about how Jesus loves us first, before we ever choose to love Him.  Often times, we do anything and everything within our earthly power to manipulate someone into loving us.  With Jesus, He loves us FIRST! Don’t expect perfection from your partner alone. It is through Christ’s love, that our love for each other is perfected!

This praise & worship song, “Jesus, I Do” speaks of the concept that Jesus is pursuing us, even if we’re not pursuing Him. His divine plan for our life is for us to accept Him as the ultimate sacrifice. We get to trade in all of our superficial relationships in this world, for an everlasting relationship with someone who knows EXACTLY what it means to LOVE us, unconditionally.

No one. Not your mother, not your father, not your husband, not your wife, not your children, not your boyfriend or girlfriend in passing……..can give the kind of love that casts out FEAR.

Have you ever felt afraid that your significant other would cheat on you or betray you? Have you dealt with insecurities that are rooted in a childhood of “feeling unloved?”

In I John 4:18, God tells us that there REALLY IS a perfect LOVE that CASTS out ALL of that FEAR, ANXIETY, WORRY, DRAMA, JEALOUSY and everything in-between. But most of the time we misinterpret and try to look for that perfect love in a human being. Or else we try to love someone else PERFECTLY and get disappointed really quickly, because they don’t give us the same in return. JESUS is the only one who can offer you LOVE with no strings attached, casting out all fear, so that you don’t have to wring your hands wondering if HE is going to “come home at night.” Because Jesus said, in Matthew 28:20, “I am always with you, to the end of the ages.”

Say “I do” to Jesus, and He will never divorce you. He won’t force you to say “Jesus is the way.” But He is waiting for you to accept His love.

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Through a Child’s Eyes-Song

“Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:2-4

Sometimes our perspective on life gets tainted. We can’t see through the glass clearly anymore. God becomes like a faint memory of something good or bad, a dusty figurine packed away with all the other moments that we’ve partly suppressed as the past. Having children is a constant reminder of the simplicity with which I once held faith, before I understood that – intentions run deep.

I get so frightened when my 6 year old daughter asks me about God. She still thinks of God as someone simple, someone there, not someone there only when others are not.

It’s like I’m hiding a secret from her, that my childlike faith, her childlike faith may turn into a grown up mess searching for answers in all the wrong places. I wrote this song recently, after my daughter made a simple, childlike comment about God. I do not even remember what the comment was now, but I remembered God saying that unless we come to him as children, we will not enter the Kingdom of heaven. This, in other words, was a prayer for God to show me the keys to the Kingdom.

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To those who’ve Lost your mom….

My adopted daughter, Nina, wrote a poem about her biological mother, Justine. I made it into a song. I still have my mother, but for those of you who’ve already lost your mom — this song is for you. We just got back from Disney, and I screamed on a ride or two, so please excuse the scruffiness of my voice. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers, both biological & adoptive!!

You gave life to me
gave a start to destiny
now I know
There’s no other love like yours
After all I received
the day you conceived
I miss you
I miss you mom
Your love was complete
gave me everything I need
Now I wish
I could tell you all those things
I should have said more
all the things I’m sorry for
I miss you
I miss you mom
The day you said goodbye
left me here to wonder why
and who would be my shoulder
to cry on
I dream about those times
of lullabies and rhymes
I miss you
I miss you mom
Do you hear my voice
If I only had one choice
I’d give you life
just like you gave to me
You said you’d never leave
but I know it’s destiny
I miss you
I miss you mom
Bridge:
I’d give you all you missed
if I only had one wish
I’d hold back all the clouds
up in the sky
with days as bright as the sun
mom
We’d play and run
I miss you
I miss you mom